我

記不起從何時開始，已有這個想法。

人，最不清楚自己的，其實就是我們自己。

無論你認為你有多認識自己也好，有多了解自己也好，
我們可從來沒有真正的看過自己一眼。

難道不是嗎？

鏡中的「我」，只是一個反映，
是由光線折射到眼球再傳送到腦部的一個訊息；
相中的「我」，也不過是靠光圈大小、快門開合，
加上曝光顯影定影等化學作用所得來的一堆微粒而已；
就連自己的聲音，也是被隔被過濾過的。
我們要比任何人更不清楚自己的容貌，
更聽不確切自己的說話。

當局者迷，莫非就是這個意思？

my first handmade puppet

中學時代，唸修女學校，

最女性化的Home Economics，
當然是（被迫）必修的科目吧！
那時候的我，很男仔頭，
上烹飪堂寧可洗碗也不願煮東西。
上Needlework堂就更加怕，
怕穿線也怕衣車那又粗又尖的車針。
只因試過車車吓衫的時候，
整支車針「啪」一聲的斷裂，
兼且迎面飛彈過來，
差點毀容甚或插盲眼，
很恐怖的童年陰影，
所以我那些睡衣呀圍裙呀等車衣習作，
全都是好友咕媽媽和四姨的功勞，
與我無關！
雖然如此，我卻獨愛拿著針線刺繡的感覺，
什麼cross stitch、blanket stitch都學過了，
也都忘記了，不過最近我又重拾起這玩意兒來。



這就是我人生第一次親手造的絨布公仔，
他是來自Springfield的Wendell Borton，
是Bart Simpson那位經常嘔吐的同學。
請不要問我為什麼有靚仔主角不揀，
反而要這個side cast得不能再side cast的小腳色？
總之我就愛煞他啦！嘩哈哈哈！

got milk? got hope

575 Castro St.

做貓多好

頭眩眩
不知是感冒還是著涼了
腦閉塞
卻肯定是長假後遺症
人極懶散
思緒混亂
不知所謂
只想睡覺
做貓多好

Fashion is a kind of vitamin for style.

It stimulates you, gets you going.

But there is a risk of overdose.

It can destroy the balance of your personality -

that goes for a designer,

and for the woman who wears his clothes.

- Yves Saint Laurent

16 random things

It kinda works like those bad luck chain letters we used to get when we were small, but this recent "16 Randon Things" thing on Facebook is actually quite interesting, so I thought 'Why not post it here?!'

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Who tagged me? Kim Au

01. I can leave home without my cell phone but never ever without black eyeliner (either eye kohl Phone Number or powerpoint eye pencil Buried Treasure from MAC.)

02. I hate Math. I'm terrible with numbers. Period!

03. I love Spongebob Squarepants. I love Bart Simpson. I love his nauseated albino classmate Wendell Borton. I love Mr. Friendly. I love Smiley faces. I love bananas. They are all yellow.

04. I can eat steak (must be cooked medium rare), burger & fries, BLT, doughnuts, cream cracker, popcorn and wine gums all day long.

05. I have OCD. I wash hands like ten thousand times a day, and I actually kinda enjoy doing dishes and ironing shirts.

06. I have never smoked in my entire life. No, not even once. A lot of second-hand smoking though.

07. I can't stand room temperature water, it makes me wanna puke. I must drink either steaming hot or iced cold beverages.

08. I would never be caught wearing mini skirts and fishnet stockings.

09. I am terrified of mosquitoes. I think they are even worse than cockroaches.

10. I can never stop buying magazines, books, DVDs, sneakers, border tees, rings and CABANE de ZUCCa wristwatches.

11. My first childhood dream was to become a fashion designer. When I grew older, I wanted to be a lawyer. Then in 1995, Wong Kar Wai won "Best Director" in the 14th Hong Kong Film Awards with his film Chungking Express, his speech made me wanna become a film director. That was why I chose to study Directing & Writing in college. Yet now I wish I would be an installation artist, someday.

12. I have 4 cats, technically speaking. Miuzi, Kojiro and Dan Dan are at my mom's place, and Kuro lives with me. I don't intend to get anymore though.

13. I have 4 tattoos, and I do plan to get my 5th one ASAP.

14. I am a die hard film camera person. I take my LOMO LC-A with me wherever I travel. I love cross-processing. I hate digitals, but I am digging Poladroid these days.

15. When I was fifteen, the Calvin Klein Obession black & white ad with Kate Moss, lying stomach down on the sofa, all naked, was on my closet door. It's still there.

16. I was an extra in a movie. Yes! I once appeared on that big screen! Those who know me well would know which movie I am talking about.